I was thinking about this last night. I have always been self-conscious about my face and actions. But then again.. who isn't? Really?
I am not liked by many men. Or many women. Generally, I am not regarded. My other friends are, of course, more naturally picked. Occasionally, I am jealous of this. .. But I think.. Why?
I compare myself to others too easily, and I don't want to do that. I am happy for being me. But sometimes I wish I could be more. I'm sure I'm not the only one.
I'm grateful for friends who support me. I'm grateful to my dear friend Ayla for telling me: "Shut your face!" anytime I'm down about myself.
I'm grateful for all of them, who constantly pick me up. And I don't want to be a burden on them, so I'm not complaining anymore. ... Maybe once in a while. C'mon, everyone does.
Even if I'm not really much to look at, even if I fail epically, I am me.
Life (especially in high school) isn't about finding those who like you and want to date you. It'll happen when it happens.
Sure, I'm not like a lot of the girls at school who are picked up and go on dates and stuff. In fact.. I've never really been asked out on a date before. Officially that is.
I may be lonely a lot, but I'm still happy that I'm me and I have such great friends. Yeah. I'm a sap. Shush.
I'm not changing myself for anyone. ^^